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:iconmiseryplz: I KNOW :iconmiseryplz:
I know I know I know.

I know I should do something about myself.

So, first off, nope. Im really not dead. Many of those who I used to be in touch with might think so because Ive been pretending to be finished off for well, a long time. Longer than Id like to even admit. And here Im getting to the point when Im going to say 'thing is, lifes been pretty rash lately', and youre think 'oh, just the usual bunch of shits'. So Im not going to write that. Ill give you the truth instead.

Me = not strong enough to face myself, my inner world and my inner demons.
Everybody else = not smart enough to punch me real hard in the face and tell me to man up.

There. That is the complete truth. Many things had happened, many emotions exploded and many other things have happened since the explosion, but anyway. Maybe some of those that knew me already realized that Im not the type to fight for too long. I rather close up and leave things be as they are. I dont have the nerves for fighting. So Im better off with just pretending.

Although a certain thing happened that had pierced my personal bubble of illusions that Ive been building for many years, my entire life actually, which sent me into a brilliant depression and then shot me right out of it.

So no need to worry about me anymore. Hare Hare Im in a good place Hare Hare my life is all cool haha, well, just kidding. :glomp:

:iconsayhiplz: AND NOW :iconsayhiplz:

I do realize how many rests I have EVERYWHERE all over the internet. I do realize how many apologies I owe to so friggen many people, those who I dared to call my internet friends. And you guys have no idea what a shame I feel about it all.
I wish I could name all those I owe an apology, but theres just too many, and I doubt theyll even see it and if they do, Id totally respect if theyd ignore it.

But anyway.

Helen: I freaking owe you so much. You dont (and I think theres no way you possibly could) realize how much you did for me and what you mean to me. Seriously, I appreciate you and I always will. Youre technically the only one who continued to stick around with me. =)
Stan: Weve hurt each other many times, I know, but hey Im bearing with you, and youre bearing with me. How about we keep that up? :shrug:
Kat: Oki doki, I know I screw up many things, and I know I dont deserve even the slightest snatch of your acceptance, but still. I do need to say Im sorry. You know youll always mean a lot to me. :glomp:
Birdie: Though we dont know each other much, I think I need to apologize for not even being around to tell you happy B-day, or at least review your surely lovely pictures for you. Yep, Im horrible. And you have every right to think Im a well, anything ugly you can imagine. :rose:
Fee: Weve been talking a lot, youre truly awesome young gal, and Id like to make everything up to you. Not replying to your last message was killing me, really, but as Ive said before. I had to pierce the bubble first. =P

:iconwhistleplz: AND SO :iconwhistleplz:

Im not really coming back, I still have many thing in my life to accomplish (or sumthin'), but you can count on that Im gonna come back soon, kick everybodys ass and make you regret forgetting me!

And the latest message of them all in this very long journal: Im gonna get to it. And Im gonna do everything I was supposed to do long time ago. :iconloveloveplz:

~Love, Barb =)
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Agnes Obel - Katie Cruel
  • Reading: *cough*Yaoi*cough* ... or Twenties Girl ...
  • Watching: One Piece
  • Playing: Everybody elses nerves
  • Eating: Chinese soups and chocolates
  • Drinking: Water

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Barbarita Salvati
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
Czech Republic
The picture (made by me) says:
"No words, no dreams then one day..."
Well, pretty much my life story. I used to be very very VERY different from now, dumb girl that had to have everything pink - and I wasnt eight or so, I was thirteen and younger - and had tons of 'friends' who were 'friends' only because it was an advantage for them.
But then this one day happened and it sent me on my endless and fierce and amazing journey towards myself and my own happiness.
No words, no dreams then one day...
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:iconthelittle1:
TheLittle1 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy Birthday, Barb!  I hope you are doing well!
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lutece-irwin Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! WOOOOOOOO
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TheLittle1 Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
:huggle:

You have been hugged!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

1-3 you're bad friend
4-6 you're an ok friend
7-9 you're a good friend
10-& Up you're a great friend
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Varjopihlaja Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav~ :iconblushthanksplz:
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BarbaritaS Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem! :iconomgsocuteplz:
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Joe-Roberts Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for faving Nightmares Reign [link] :)
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Sambre-sambre Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the faves and the watch! ^-^
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BarbaritaS Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yup, no problem! =)
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Sambre-sambre Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
^.^
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Amulet-Kitty Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:
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